What are words?

Tuesday, August 17, 2010, 10:25 AM

I've always loved to see Hilary Duff. She's so damn pretty and flawless!
Agree? Like duh.

I know I shouldn't compare myself with her or others but sometimes I (wished) I have perfect skin.
Seriously. No joke. No kidding.
Seeing the people around me having flawless complexion makes me so inferior and that lower down my self-esteem.

I wished I could turn back time when I was still in Sec 2.
I've seen my friends around me that used to have acne on their face and it shocked me that they have porcelain skin now!
And they told me that the acne just goes off by itself.
How envy I am. Serioussssssss.
And I'm the one left out, till now, to face this problem for the past 7 years.
7 years! Mind you!

I don't know how I'm going to face people.
I used to just stay indoor and not go out because I'm pretty embarrassed to face the outside world. Yeah. To that extend.
Furthermore when you have a boyfriend.
You always need to look good and polished.
Who doesn't want their gf too look pretty right?

I always thought about what others view about me?
you know like,
" Eh, the girlfriend got a lot of pimple sia on the face seh"
or
"Of all pretty girls, why choose a pimple girl like me?"

It's tough to face this and what others might think about me.
Oh well.
What more can I do right?
:'(

Blame the family for having bad genes. Pffft.